I grew up in a large family, and I’m very used to filling my own time with reading or other singular person activities. I wanted to give my daughter that too — the ability to sit by oneself and be content with one’s surroundings and just live life – rather than have someone else fill it with activities and ideas. But, in fact, with my 2 1/2 year old – that’s actually the wrong thing to do… I shouldn’t leave her alone, because she’s in distress when alone. I need to provide the direction, the know-how, for her to modulate her world — and that requires scheduled time… just the opposite of what I was prepared for – and it is rather unnatural for me…